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Jan. 17th, 2010

Randomness of the random

What is your name?: Seraphim Wilson

What is your age?: 18

What is your height?: 5'3"

What is your current weight?: 113 (better now, but not there yet)

What is your high weight?: 165.6

What is your low weight?: 113

What is your ultimate goal weight?: I was thinking about 100 but if I don't think that I am done once I hit that then I will go lower... maybe around 90 or so.

Which eating disorder do you have?: Anorexia... I had outbursts of bulimia but that as stopped.

For how long?: mentally since around 7 or 8 and physically since I was 13

Do you take diet pills?: Not really...

Which ones? Niacin (not really a diet pill but it really does work). Though now I'm on Bionin.

Which body part do you hate the most?: Everything really.... But with I loath is my thighs.

Which body part do you like the most?: my wrists and collarbones.

What triggered your ED?: Ever since I can remember I have been the "fat/ ugly one" so I desided to take matters into my own hands.

Does anybody know about your ED?: My boyfriend Chris... he was Ana. He really hates that I'm still into it but i really can't see myself being anything else; I will always be Ana.

Have you ever tried to recover?: Yes and still am trying but I really can't help myself.

Have you ever been to a therapist?: not for my ED

What's your favortie binge food?: Bread and Nutella...

What's your favorite safe food?: Veggies and fruits

Longest you have fasted?: For about a week.



About You --

Do you Work? Where?: Not anymore... but thats fine, I'll get a job sooner or later.

Do you go to School? College

Location?: Maryland

Relationship Status?: In a long term relationship

Hair Color?: Dirty blonde with neon blue streak in the front with a tiny piece of light blonde infront of that.

Eye Color?: Bright blue...

Nov. 13th, 2009

I'm good - and Alive

Sorry that I haven't been on in a really long time. I've been really busy with college and my new boyfriend, Chris.

He is amazing to me, I really do love him. ^_^


Good news, I'm down to 113 pounds. I'm really happy and don't know if I'm going to lose anymore or not. I'm bond to because of college life... I don't really have anytime to eat. *shrugs*

Apr. 11th, 2009

Life after Him

So... My 2 year relationship with Mark is over...

I don't really know what to do with myself anymore.... but I guess it's a good thing that he wouldn't be bugging me about eating and all that annoying shit anymore.




I don't know weather to go out and look for someone new or just enjoy life alone for a bit.

*shrugs*


I have a lot of thinking to do on that part.




But on a good note I lost a bunch of weight... I was 138 >_< and now I got down to 130.3 ^_^ It's not the greatest but I keep losing some of this ugly fat each day sooooo, I'll look good in no time !!! And just in time for swim suit season....



^_^ ~Sera~ ------ this one who is free at last.

Feb. 26th, 2009

Arugggggg...

I know that the title really isn't much of a word right now... but I think that it tells people what I'm feeling like right now.

I've gained A LOT of weight... and I feel as if I'm never going to get it off again. I've tried everything... I even got myself a pregos test just to see, I'm not. So I don't know what happened to me... it seems like as soon as I stopped looking at my scale all the time that I lost the control I had on my eating.

I need a game plan.


If anyone has anything to say then please say it. I need the help !!

Nov. 26th, 2008

God damnit !!

I really hate myself right now... it seems as if I'm gaining weight again.

I went up to like 134 again... was like 136 yesterday....


this sucks sooooo much ass; I need someone to help me in some way...

and I know that tomorrow I'm going to gain even more weight.... this truly sucks ass.

>_

Nov. 21st, 2008

damn....

I feel like shit....
I lost like a pound... woohoo, I guess.

I really need to lose this weight... I feel so damn fat >_<

I want to lose like 30 pounds by like the end of need mounth.... so like the new year.

I want to start out the new year thin and perfect not all fat and disgusting like I am now.

I really hope that if I cut back on my food intake to like 500 (or less) cals a day that I can reach this goal.

Well, wish me luck !

Nov. 12th, 2008

Need to Lose






11/12/08 god, I can not wait to lose all this fat that just hangs on my beautiful perfect bones...

11/13/08 well, at least I lost a pounds ^_^ I really need to know some things that can hide what I'm doing from my boyfriend because he knows (sort of) and makes me eat in front of him which is really hard.... I really want to eat in front of him and then go and throw it up because he makes me fat >_< I love him but I really want to lose weight, plus I can't bring myself to throw up anymore because my gag reflex doesn't really work anymore so I don't know what to do !! If anyone has anything to help; please comment !!

11/21/08 I created a community. I like it so far. I think that I'm going to put up some thinspo and thinks like that .... whatever I can find. I hope that some of you will check it out ^_^ it's : http://community.livejournal.com/itsgoodtobethin/


THINK THIN !!!!!

Nov. 10th, 2008

To the people that don't know me.

What is your name?: Seraphim Wilson

What is your age?: just turned 17

What is your height?: 5'1"

What is your current weight?: 132 =/

What is your high weight?: 165.6

What is your low weight?: 126.6

What is your ultimate goal weight?: between 100 and 90

Which eating disorder do you have?: Anorexia which Bulimia outbursts

For how long?: mentally since around 7 or 8 and physically since I was 13

Do you take diet pills?: yeah sometimes; speaking of this I need to find a new type. Mine isn't working really anymore.

Which ones? Niacin (not really a diet pill but it really does work; I weighted 165.6 pounds and I lost it was with Niacin.... 30+ pounds !)

Which body part do you hate the most?: Everything really.... But with I loath is my thighs and my arms.

Which body part do you like the most?: my wrists and collarbones.

What triggered your ED?: people calling me fat and just really wanting to be perfect.

Does anybody know about your ED?: I think that they are catching on.

Have you ever tried to recover?: yes... but that really didn't go over to well.

Have you ever been to a therapist?: not for my ED

What's your favortie binge food?: bread XD

What's your favorite safe food?: soups and salads

Longest you have fasted?: like a week.



About You --

Do you Work? Where?: Not right now. I want to become a model though.

Do you go to School? Yes

Location?: Maryland

Relationship Status?: In a long term relationship

Hair Color?: light brown (dirty blond at roots) with one neon blue streak in front.
Eye Color?: Ice Blue

Nov. 6th, 2008

*sighs*

Well, I haven't lost any weight... which really bothers me ...... a lot !!!


I've been stuck at 133 pounds for like the past couple of months and I can't seem to get it down any farther then that. I sent a message to a friend on here asking for some help (if she has any). I sure hope that she does.


CW: 133.3
HW: 165.6
LW: 126.6
GW: 100 or less
UGW: 95 or less


I really want to lose this weight by the end of this year. I want to be thin (as we all do) . >_< damnit !!

I feel like people are staring at me in school because I'm the only fat one there.... everyone else is so thin and prefect but they can eat anything they want and still be thin. But if I eat it will go right to my thighs (which I don't need anymore fat there)


*signs* well... I'm going to go and work out so yea... STAY THIN !!

Oct. 15th, 2008

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Stats and stuff to get to know me:

Age:17. Just turned 17 today !!
Ht: 5'1"
CW: 133 lbs.
LW: 126 lbs. :]
HW: 165 lbs.
GW: 100 lbs. (or lower)
UGW: 90 lbs.
Ana / Occasional Mia episodes (not that many though).

What's your current location? Maryland.
What's your eye color? Ice blue.
Do you have any piercings? 7. All in the ears.
Do you have any tatoos? One on my back; a Egyptian design with 2 eye of Ra and a blue cresent moon on my hip.
Do you have any siblings? Nope. Thank god.
Do you have any pets? Yes, I have 6 dogs (Flip, Brigit, Nick, Aura, Vickie, and Maca.) 3 cats (Jack, Bummer, and Peu.) and finally a lizard named Gaz.

Favorites --
Food? Sushi ^_^
Icecream? Cookies n' Cream or double fudge
Drink? Water and Tea
Season? Autumn.
Male Celeb? Heath Letcher
Female Celeb? She the girl on Priests of the Caribbean. >_< damn I can't remember her name but I would kill for that body !!
Book? I really like Ann Rice.
TV Show? Family Guy, The Oblongs.
Movie? Spirited Away, the Dark Knight, and Thirteen.
Childhood Toy? My drawing paper... I really didn't have toys.

Other things --
Height? It's up there.
Most Important Personality Trait? Bluntness
Do you do drugs? Yes.
Smoke? Yes.
Do you like coffee? Not really I like Tea more.
What do you want to be when you grow up? Alive. Tattooing some people in some state, maybe.
Do you have any regrets? A lot.
Does karma come back and get you? Not really so much me but I've definitely seen Karma in action before.
Do you die your hair? Yes.

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